A note to my LOVE!

I know things were not at all going good. I know you are totally frustrated by the way I was fighting with you just for everything. I know that there were several issues between us that were left unresolved. But I just want to go back. I want to LOVE you the way I used to. No complaints, no demands. I know my words don’t have enough weight in them now. I know I have been crossing limits. But I sincerely want to be with you. And I don’t want to add up to your problems too. We both are quiet adamant because of our very nature. We both want to be independent. But I know we both love each other too. I don’t know what has affected our relationship so seriously that even we fail to talk sometimes. I assure you on my part that I will be with you. I have become my own enemy. Just because of you, I have started loving me. You’re my inspiration always. Because of you I started performing better in my academics. Because I wanted to be deserving for you. Maybe I shouldn’t mention but I got so called ripped only because of you(don’t take it otherwise). You are my inspiration. If you will not be with me, then I will loose my Energy, my Shakti and my inspiration. I don’t know for what reasons I forgot that I can’t even live without you. I forgot that even you could go away from me. That’s why I tortured myself when you went away. And I thought that it was because of my illegitimate demand of getting more close to you that you went away. And I was right even, but I never expected that you will go away. I have realised that my overreach is hurting both of us. I will try to behave as ‘human’ as possible. Maybe I am human only, that’s why I have these urges, anger and fear of losing you. I want you to be with me, and if anything comes in its way, I want to kill that before it becomes a fear in me of losing you. That’s why I adopted Brahmacharya without discussing with you forcefully. You have spent more time on this earth than me and I believe that you know more than me. I know you are on threshold of achieving your life goal. And I was just so stupid that instead of realising that, I was fighting with you on useless and irrelevant issues. I was the one who was disturbing you unnecessarily. I extend my unconditional heartfelt apology. I wish that I didn’t behaved so rudely with the love of my life. But I can’t go in the past. I really cherish what I have. I have extreme love and affection for you embedded deep in my heart. I accept responsibility for all the things that have gone bad to worse between  us. I have realised now that more than me, my love, my care what you need is TIME. Because this time won’t ever come back. You might not ever get a chance again to prove to yourself your worth. You are a priceless gem. And I am extremely lucky to be with you. I will do my best that I won’t be taking your time because really this time won’t ever come back. I will be as sincere and disciplined as possible.  I know I let down myself but I also know that I won’t let you down now. I will be with you. This is my sincere promise. I will try to abide by it. At last, I want to say that I LOVE YOU, NOW & ALWAYS.